Hello! Before I get out my soapbox to mouth off about my pet peeves, here's WMH
*sigh* Anyway, pet peeves of the writing variety. I don't know that I have many, but here we go.
1. Not writing when I say I will. Yeah, that's a big one with me. And with depression it's even bigger . . . huger even. Often, by the time I do all my adult stuff and make it home, I just really want to nap. Depression is exhausting and pretending everything is okay is even more exhausting. So, yeah, no writing.
2. Getting half way or more through a book and realizing--whoops-- the beginning of it is wrong. Yeah, that's another thing I'm facing right now. So, with over 50k I am back at the beginning fixing it so that the story will make sense.
3. When I'm actually writing having to stop for one reason or another. Once that happens, I'm sunk.
4. Having an awesome idea for a book . . . but I'm already working on one and have 2 others I have to get to before I can get to the new great idea.
5. Seeing brand new books out I want to read, but know I should be writing instead. But really wanting to read the books . . . for research and stuff.
Right now, that's all I got. If you have some awesome pet peeves . . . any pet peeves you want to share then drop them down in the comments. I want to know what bothers you. Truly.
Now, don't forget to run and check out what bugs the other bloggers and I'll see you all next week.-- Gwen
Jessica
Bronwyn
Kris
Kellie
Jessica D
Kayleigh
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
Wednesday, January 20, 2016
HAPPINESS IN PICTURES
As you know, I can never do one of these pic deals without adding words. So there you go. Anyway, there were no real direction for this so I'm just going to show pics of things, places, people that make me happy.And the first happy is Wednesday Male Hotness
And now, run over and check out what makes the other bloggers happy. I will see you all next week! -- Gwen
Jessica
Bronwyn
Kris
Kellie
Jessica D
Kayleigh
Paige
And now, run over and check out what makes the other bloggers happy. I will see you all next week! -- Gwen
Jessica
Bronwyn
Kris
Kellie
Jessica D
Kayleigh
Paige
Wednesday, January 6, 2016
YEAR IN REVIEW - BEST MEMORIES OF 2015
Before I jump in let me share Wednesday Male Hotness:
Okay, so our topic this week is all about last year. A year, truthfully, I'd rather forget. In fact, I was going to blow this blog off or do something silly, but I think instead I'll be totally, absolutely honest. I know . . . scary.
To begin, I have a mental illness . . . probably more than one, but whatever. I have clinical depression. I take meds, but often they don't work because the illness overwhelms them. Because life and my reactions to events overwhelms them. I think of it as a low grade fire that constantly has water sprayed on it. The water controls it, but never puts it out. Sometimes the flames flare up and that tiny spurt of water just isn't enough.
2015 started out horrible. I lost my two baby boy cats, Warlock and Max within a week of each other. Devastating. I don't think I quite recovered from the one two punch of that. Those events tossed gasoline on my tiny flame. Things just kept rolling, adding fuel to the flame.
The depression overwhelmed, as it's wont to do, and before I knew it I was under. I couldn't write, didn't want to go anywhere, didn't want to do anything, slept constantly or not at all. Suicide entered my mind. Been there, had those thoughts before, and I'm savvy enough not to fall for them. But it was so tempting. End it. Over.
Guess what? I didn't. I knew it was the illness whispering. Even at my very worse, when I imagined there was no one who would care if I disappeared, I knew my sister would. I couldn't leave my sister. No matter what. I couldn't, wouldn't do that to her. Was it and is it a struggle? Oh hell yes. But making the choice to die would be like tossing my Mom's gift back in her face.
See, my Mom had a massive stroke and ended up in Hosparus (hospice hospital). I knew she was hanging on for us. She always said she'd never leave her girls. I told her it was okay to go. We knew she loved us. But, we'd be fine, because she gifted me with my best friend. Since she'd worked so hard to give that gift to me, how would it be if I tossed it away?
I think I'm on the upswing. At least, I feel as though I am, but I take it one day at a time. Sometimes, when things get really shitty, I focus on an event or a trip we have planned. You know, can't go anywhere cause I don't want to miss (insert thing here). It works for me and, yeah, sometimes that's all that matters.
Saying all this, there have been "best" memories from this year. I got a kitten, Maeve, who is so sweet. She really is my baby.
Sis & I went to Nashville a few times to meet our best friends and hang out.
We also took a trip to Atlanta, which was a lot of fun. We saw the largest aquarium in the universe, the botanical garden, and the natural history museum.
We planted our flower garden. We went to tea at our favorite place, Sisters Tea Parlor.
Our best friends came and spent the holidays with us.
I even picked up a new hobby, which is making my own soap. Go me.
It's so easy to dwell on the bad, especially when depression is flamed up to forest fire levels. This post though, has forced me to list the good stuff from this year and that's a huge positive. Like I said, I wasn't even going to do this post, but blogging every week was one of my resolutions for the year.
Hope this wasn't a downer to you. And if you suffer from depression it's okay, it's an illness just like high blood pressure or diabetes. Make sure you take care of yourself and if it gets too much please, please seek help. Know that you are so valuable, you are the only you here and we'd miss if you you were gone.
Now go and check out some other best memories from the other bloggers and I'll see you next week. Pinkie Promise! Gwen
Jessica
Bronwyn
Kris
Jessica D
Kellie
Paige
Kayleigh
Okay, so our topic this week is all about last year. A year, truthfully, I'd rather forget. In fact, I was going to blow this blog off or do something silly, but I think instead I'll be totally, absolutely honest. I know . . . scary.
To begin, I have a mental illness . . . probably more than one, but whatever. I have clinical depression. I take meds, but often they don't work because the illness overwhelms them. Because life and my reactions to events overwhelms them. I think of it as a low grade fire that constantly has water sprayed on it. The water controls it, but never puts it out. Sometimes the flames flare up and that tiny spurt of water just isn't enough.
2015 started out horrible. I lost my two baby boy cats, Warlock and Max within a week of each other. Devastating. I don't think I quite recovered from the one two punch of that. Those events tossed gasoline on my tiny flame. Things just kept rolling, adding fuel to the flame.
The depression overwhelmed, as it's wont to do, and before I knew it I was under. I couldn't write, didn't want to go anywhere, didn't want to do anything, slept constantly or not at all. Suicide entered my mind. Been there, had those thoughts before, and I'm savvy enough not to fall for them. But it was so tempting. End it. Over.
Guess what? I didn't. I knew it was the illness whispering. Even at my very worse, when I imagined there was no one who would care if I disappeared, I knew my sister would. I couldn't leave my sister. No matter what. I couldn't, wouldn't do that to her. Was it and is it a struggle? Oh hell yes. But making the choice to die would be like tossing my Mom's gift back in her face.
See, my Mom had a massive stroke and ended up in Hosparus (hospice hospital). I knew she was hanging on for us. She always said she'd never leave her girls. I told her it was okay to go. We knew she loved us. But, we'd be fine, because she gifted me with my best friend. Since she'd worked so hard to give that gift to me, how would it be if I tossed it away?
I think I'm on the upswing. At least, I feel as though I am, but I take it one day at a time. Sometimes, when things get really shitty, I focus on an event or a trip we have planned. You know, can't go anywhere cause I don't want to miss (insert thing here). It works for me and, yeah, sometimes that's all that matters.
Saying all this, there have been "best" memories from this year. I got a kitten, Maeve, who is so sweet. She really is my baby.
Sis & I went to Nashville a few times to meet our best friends and hang out.
We also took a trip to Atlanta, which was a lot of fun. We saw the largest aquarium in the universe, the botanical garden, and the natural history museum.
We planted our flower garden. We went to tea at our favorite place, Sisters Tea Parlor.
Our best friends came and spent the holidays with us.
I even picked up a new hobby, which is making my own soap. Go me.
It's so easy to dwell on the bad, especially when depression is flamed up to forest fire levels. This post though, has forced me to list the good stuff from this year and that's a huge positive. Like I said, I wasn't even going to do this post, but blogging every week was one of my resolutions for the year.
Hope this wasn't a downer to you. And if you suffer from depression it's okay, it's an illness just like high blood pressure or diabetes. Make sure you take care of yourself and if it gets too much please, please seek help. Know that you are so valuable, you are the only you here and we'd miss if you you were gone.
Now go and check out some other best memories from the other bloggers and I'll see you next week. Pinkie Promise! Gwen
Jessica
Bronwyn
Kris
Jessica D
Kellie
Paige
Kayleigh
Monday, January 4, 2016
JANUARY FLASH FICTION
“Stop! Stop! Stop!”
The voice, and the splattering of water,
yanked Kara out of the spell she’d been attempting. Opening her eyes, she found
herself slightly damp while the woods around her dripped with water. Huffing
out a breath, she turned on the old man by her side.
“Why did you do that?” she demanded.
“Why were you trying to set the woods on
fire?” he asked, lowering his bushy brows over his dark eyes. “There are living
beings here that need their home.”
“I wasn’t setting a fire,” she
explained. “I was opening a portal.”
“No,” he said, shaking his head, “you
were setting the tree on fire.”
She turned back and looked at the scene
in front of her. The trees, on either side of the small path in front of her,
were a bit charred. Hell, why wasn’t this working? Most people could open a
portal without any effort, but she couldn’t. She could do other things, bigger
things, more dangerous things without any effort at all, but the portal eluded
her.
“I wasn’t trying to start a fire,” she
said, turning back to her grandfather.
“Well you were.”
“You know, you should be more
supportive,” she said. “Gram said you should pick less and support more.”
“Yes, but you weren’t burning down your
Gram’s house were you?” he said, reasonably.
She pinched the bridge of her nose. He
was right. Of course he was right. He was always right and that’s why it sucked
so much. As much as he worked with her, trained her, opening a portal was
something she couldn’t do.
“Kara,” he said, “I understand your
frustration. But setting a fire is no way to deal.”
Against her will, she laughed. “I wasn’t
trying to start a fire, you old goat. I was trying to open a portal. As if you
didn’t know.”
He grandfather smiled. “I kind of
figured that out. Come over here.”
He took her arm and led her to a fallen
log. Sitting, he pulled her down next to him. He didn’t say anything, but then
she was used to that. No one hurried her grandfather, least of all her. He
would speak when he was ready. Until then, she breathed deep and soaked in the
serenity of the forest. Sunlight filtered through the high canopy causing
sparkles of light to dance here and there as the wind blew. She’d grown up
playing and learning in this magical place. Never, ever, did she want to leave.
“I think you are putting too much effort
into your magic.”
“What?” she turned to stare at the man
next to her.
He pulled contemplatively at his beard
as his soft grey eyes watched her behind wire-rimmed lenses. “You are so
powerful. I think your power is overwhelming the spell causing it to fail. I’ve
been thinking on this for quite a while. Small children can open a portal, but
not you, because your power has never been small. It’s always been more mature.”
“So I should…throttle back?”
“Yes, exactly. Your magic should nudge,
not push and shove.”
Rising, she moved to stand in the middle
of the small deer path. Small, she told herself, gentle. The magic welled up
inside her and Kara took a small, gentle tendril and allowed it to flow out
into the space before her. She pictured a doorway forming in her mind and saw
her grandmother’s kitchen garden. This was where she wanted the portal to take
her. Home. Nowhere fabulous. Just home.
“Kara.”
She opened her eyes to find a bright
shining doorway hovering right above the path. No fire, this time, but a true
portal. Without looking away, she gave her grandfather a thumb’s up.
“Oh my gosh, it’s beautiful.”
She longed to do a jig, but didn’t dare.
Not yet anyway. Once back home she’d do a victory lap around the garden with
her grandmother’s pet goat, Sissy. Right now, she concentrated on keeping her
magic in check.
“Wish me luck,” she said. “I’ll see you
at home.”
Smiling, she stepped into the bright
sphere.
Hope you enjoyed it. Now run over and check out how the other bloggers handled the picture.
Wednesday, December 30, 2015
2016 GOALS
Here we are at the So turning of another year. So insane that this year flew by. Oh wait, let's share a last Wednesday Male Hotness of 2015
Yeah, I know he's one big reason to celebrate. Huh?
Anyway, goals . . . must have goals for the coming year. So here they are:
1. Finish at least 3 books!! Which is huge since I didn't finish any this year.
2. Write everyday, no matter what, for at least an hour.
3.Blog every Wednesday! I almost made that goal this year. Yay me.
4. Do all the picture & song short fiction pieces, I started out great, but then petered out.
5. Try to exercise, at least, twice a week.
6. Make sure to post Wednesday Male Hotness!! Woo hooo
And there they are. My goals for this year. I'll use the blog to report back on how I'm doing. I mean, if I'm blogging every week, then I should be telling you all how I'm doing. :-)
Now run and check out what the other bloggers goals are for this coming year.
Jessica
Bronwyn
Kris
Jessica D
Paige
Kayleigh
See you all next!! -- Gwen
Yeah, I know he's one big reason to celebrate. Huh?
Anyway, goals . . . must have goals for the coming year. So here they are:
1. Finish at least 3 books!! Which is huge since I didn't finish any this year.
2. Write everyday, no matter what, for at least an hour.
3.Blog every Wednesday! I almost made that goal this year. Yay me.
4. Do all the picture & song short fiction pieces, I started out great, but then petered out.
5. Try to exercise, at least, twice a week.
6. Make sure to post Wednesday Male Hotness!! Woo hooo
And there they are. My goals for this year. I'll use the blog to report back on how I'm doing. I mean, if I'm blogging every week, then I should be telling you all how I'm doing. :-)
Now run and check out what the other bloggers goals are for this coming year.
Jessica
Bronwyn
Kris
Jessica D
Paige
Kayleigh
See you all next!! -- Gwen
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
HOLIDAY HELLO!!
Well here we are, only 2 days until Christmas. Hopefully, you have your shopping finished and all the presents wrapped and under the tree. I do and boy does it feel good. Another awesome event from this season is Maeve (the kitten) has totally ignored the tree. There's been no attempts to climb it, jump in it, or eat it. I am one thankful kitten mama.
Anyway, no matter how you celebrate, or if you don't, I wish you nothing but joy this month. I can't believe 2015 is almost over. Truthfully, I'll be glad to see it go. It hasn't been the best year for me. I look forward to the promise of the new year. I always think of it as starting fresh, clean slate and all that. I need it.
Before this year comes to a close though our two best friends are coming to spend the holidays with us. They've been coming ever since we lost our Mom in 2010. The holiday isn't the same without them. We're actually planning our own fancy tea for Christmas Eve. Sis and I have already started cooking and baking. It's gonna be good.
And I'm sure you're confused, right? I'm pagan and yet I celebrate Christmas. Not technically. I celebrate Yule, but no one I know does. So I just kind of move my Yule celebration a few days later and BAM it's all good.
Oh, to celebrate this incredible holiday Sis has been composing a fabulous poem. She isn't finished yet, but I can post what she's written so far. I'll nudge her along and make her finish then post the rest later. So here it is:
I told you she wasn't done, but so far I am enjoying it. I hope you do too. So have a great week! And now check out some of the other bloggers holiday greetings.
Bronwyn
Jessica
See you next week!! Gwen
Anyway, no matter how you celebrate, or if you don't, I wish you nothing but joy this month. I can't believe 2015 is almost over. Truthfully, I'll be glad to see it go. It hasn't been the best year for me. I look forward to the promise of the new year. I always think of it as starting fresh, clean slate and all that. I need it.
Before this year comes to a close though our two best friends are coming to spend the holidays with us. They've been coming ever since we lost our Mom in 2010. The holiday isn't the same without them. We're actually planning our own fancy tea for Christmas Eve. Sis and I have already started cooking and baking. It's gonna be good.
And I'm sure you're confused, right? I'm pagan and yet I celebrate Christmas. Not technically. I celebrate Yule, but no one I know does. So I just kind of move my Yule celebration a few days later and BAM it's all good.
Oh, to celebrate this incredible holiday Sis has been composing a fabulous poem. She isn't finished yet, but I can post what she's written so far. I'll nudge her along and make her finish then post the rest later. So here it is:
T'was the week of
Christmas and all through the house
All the kittehs were stirring, playing
with a fake mouse.
The stockings were hung over the fireplace
with care,
In the hopes that Command Hooks would keep
them right there.
Abby was mad, demanding
to be fed,
And threatening to walk
on my poor little head;
And Gwen and Jude in
their lounge pants, looking like crap,
Had just settled down
for their afternoon nap.
When out in the kitchen,
there arose such a clatter,
We sprang out of
blankets to see to the matter.
Again from the kitchen,
there was a great crash,
And Maeve and Olivia
from the room did dash.
I told you she wasn't done, but so far I am enjoying it. I hope you do too. So have a great week! And now check out some of the other bloggers holiday greetings.
Bronwyn
Jessica
See you next week!! Gwen
Wednesday, December 2, 2015
FAV THINGS: SMELLS/SCENTS
OMG! Can you believe it's December. . . already? The year has flown by and here we are in the midst of another holiday season. I love this favorite things idea since certain scents always remind me of events or people. Scientists or maybe it's therapists, I believe, say that scents can trigger memories.Whoever it is, they're right. Oh wait!I almost forgot Wednesday Male Hotness
So . . . scents . . . speaking of, I bet he smells really good.
Anyway, this time of year always smells the best to me. Yummy baked goods, roast turkey, glazed ham, fresh pine, pumpkin everything. So, here are some of my favorite scents, in no particular order.
1. Coffee - the scent of fresh brewed coffee takes me back to when I was a kid. My mom would put the percolator on and the scent of rich, brewed coffee would permeate the house.
2. Books - as a kid, the first thing I'd do when I got a new book, was open it up and inhale. I know it's crazy, unless you do it too but there's nothing like the smell of a book. It's almost as if you can smell the coming adventure. Today, I still take a sniff and, if you've never done it, you should.
3. Fall
My favorite time of the year. It's not just the beautiful colors, but the scents. The crispness in the air, the rich bite of turning leaves, and the wood smoke on the breeze.
4. Lavender
I have 2 plants in my garden and the essential oil by my bedside. It's both earthy and floral at the same time, which I love. The scent is relaxing and so soothing. Sometimes I put a few drops in the tub and take a very long bath.
5. Yankee Candle scents - currently, I have about 6 different candles on my dresser. Apple pumpkin, Apple cider, North Pole, Hazelnut coffee . . . I love them all. Most of them are what I would consider Fall/Holiday scents so, even in the summer, I can pretend it's my favorite time of the year.
Now, go over and check out what the other ladies love.
See you all next week!-- Gwen
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